As I Sit Here...

There are some things on my mind.

1. I move into my own place tomorrow:  The waiting game is over, and I thought I made the right decision with the limited housing options available.  Now I feel some doubt and fear after signing a lease for the next 15 months!

2. My theject (the term i created for my master's project that was originally planned to be a thesis):  I'm making progress, but it's going much slower than I had hoped.  It would be great if I could finish it by April, but I worry that I won't have the time or discipline or drive to get it done.  Or if i do get it done, i worry that it won't be my best work after building it up for so long.

3. This weekend's track meet: I'm excited for this team to compete at their first indoor conference championships, and excited that I've gotten to know the athletes better.  As a new coach, I'm getting more comfortable with my role and am enjoying a lot about it--even the pre-race nerves that I now have for the athletes, when it used to be that sick feeling I'd get before my own races.

4. Chasing a dream: With my job now being directly involved with college running, I still have the desire to keep training myself.  The particular goal I have, along with my theject, is also time-sensitive.  It just seems like with this big transition, I'm not sure if it's good to be putting so much time and energy into my own running ambitions.  I know that running immensely helps relieve stress, and I've also been injury-free for awhile now, which I can't seem to be thankful enough for after all the seasons of dealing with shin problems or random sicknesses!  However, I'm not sure how feasible it is to go for it...

Basically, there is a lot of change and stress going on at the moment.  Along with my own stuff, my dog died a couple weeks ago right before I moved here, and my parents are probably getting a new dog really soon.  They also just bought a new car today?!  My close friend from high school just had her world turned upside-down.  I also have friends who are buying houses and getting married and moving to new places and starting new lives.  I'm also reluctant to reach out here and make new friends and find a church.

I know I shouldn't worry or let things stress me out like this, but the combination of everything is a little overwhelming. So that's what i've been thinking about lately.

Tomorrow (in a few hours) will be a new day!  Goodnight.